Rebirth

My science teacher told me last year something that inspired me in many ways.
He married the woman he loves maybe 20 years ago or more, they fell in love when he was 18 years old.
So i asked him...
"How could you stay with one person for too long? Didn't you felt like dating other women? Isn't it hard?"
He looked at me, and replied:
"Do I have to? If you love someone why do you have to leave them?"

When he said that, I decided to make my next relationship the purest and happiest I wil ever have, and the last relationship of course.
Why do we need to fall in love with multiple people?
Is there really a need to change?
If you want someone so badly, why is it that we search for something else?"

With both of my hands just washed with soap and water.
I touched your cheeks with my left hand, then I came closer to you,
i felt your nose, your face, then I kissed your lips.

Once again, I repeated the same steps, and i kissed you better,
and better... your eyes closed, and your hands laying on my bed...
I gave you my heart. I gave you my soul.

I am your third, the one who will love you, protect you, and marry you.
I cannot wait to hold you.
I cannot wait to hold your hand whenever we leave home.
I cannot wait to sit next to you in the train, take care of you while you sleep on your way back.

I cannot wait...
I cannot wait.....

She is...

What I need to put a stop sometimes because i could probably die.
What I wish I could hold everynight instead of my cover.s
What I wish I could grab and kiss on a isolated forest.
What I cannot live with.
My beautiful Fiancee.

I want to tell you, that since that night you told me you just woke up and reply to my message,
I wanted to know about you more, I wanted to know what type of person you were.
Noone in my life can compare to you, nothing in this world can.
When we became girlfriends, I thought it was going to be hard because of so many things.
It is hard in it's own way, but I love it.
Everything about us I have fallen inlove with.
The way we met was unexpected, I didn't know my life would have such a jump.
But since it was a good one i went along with it.

When I met you in that airplane, i was scared to touch you,
because you were finally here, I was scared maybe you wouldn't like me.
My room is not the same without you,
I still can imagine how everything looked when you were here.
Your luggage was on one side, your clock on my table, your charm next to my alarm clock,
your beauty supplies on top of my white table, your coat and dirty clothes inside my closet.
Your wallet, your towel, you were here...
And I'm planning to keep this room the same way you left it.
That's what I want...
When you come back, everything will be the same way you left it,
except the weather...
I miss you... I need you...
What to do?
Tracy, I love you.

A kite that cannot fly.

The dreams that hide inside everyone's hearts are so powerful it can take a whole country by storm.
If only people knew how to show those dreams, I believe everyone would become a God.
The society we live in is mostly dedicated to those who have or create money.
Only those can be the known ones. They have the ability to transfer selfish dreams to others.
My mind is troubled. I keep thinking of solutions to my dreadful life, but the ones i come up with are useless and too vague to come true.
Maybe the best method to get things to work is to do something about it.
"Stand up from this floor, and navigate to the real world. Fight to get what you want." is what I keep telling myself, but something holds me back, the tears of the woman I love, the loneliness i perceive are holding me back. Just the mere thought of me not being near her makes me weak.
If only she was near me, I think I would be stronger.
Now this is the real deal, I must grow up as a person, the only way I can know for sure how strong I am, is to never get defeated by what "i'm supposed" to do.

I'm sitting next to my beautiful notebook Asus known as "Baby Lemon". He really knows how to make a person happy. I keep thinking of what will happen tomorrow, what will happen next year. Lately, I keep thinking of the past, my past relationships, what I did wrong, what I regret.
Of course, I regret many things, but now I feel so good, I feel is good what I did because it let me to my relationship with my wife. No matter how moody or impatient she gets, I still love her, and I will be there to kiss her good night every night until those feelings go away.
Work makes people impatient, because they know tomorrow they will be back into the same place they become impatient.

This is it for today, I can't wait for tomorrow. Life gets better and better when she's around.