If I didn't have her...

I would send her emails everyday, just to remind myself she was there.
I would call her cellphone... Just to hear her voicemail.
I would place all her pictures near my bed... So she can see me sleep.
I would hold my hand tight when I go out... So I know her hand was holding mine.
I would cry myself to sleep... Because I know I can't live like this.
I would write her name in a piece of paper... To see how beautiful it was.
I would wear her clothes... So I can remember how she looked in them.
I would listen to her favorite songs... To hear her smile and cry.
I would walk through the places she stepped on... To feel alive.
I would scream her name in a field... So I can hear a reply.
I would tell my friends about her... So they can tell me good things about us.
I would become a walking urn of her memories...
I would donate my blood until I'm completely dried...
I would then die... To fly to her and protect her from the world.
I would...