October 15, 2009

And it goes on...

I cannot remember the last time I actually didn't feel stressed.
Oh wait.. That was before college began.
I have noticed that whenever I go to sleep in the beginning of college I got so used to the schedule that I would wake up everyday at 6 am(Even weekends).
I felt so much stress and anxiety I didn't know what to do.
I tried to sleep, failed, tried again and failed. I just stayed in bed for half an hour imagining pointless stuff. Then, I felt anxious again.
Lately, whenever I go to sleep, I press my teeth very hard agaisnt each other.
I don't notice I do that, but whenever I wake up my teeth are completely tight!
Then when I open my mouth.. I feel my head muscles relax.
This happens to me every time I wake up. Now i put a piece of my covers inside my mouth, that way i won't press my teeth.
Could it be stress?
I have so many things to do now. So many things to read for Journalism and Philosophy...
Tests.. Tests... Tests...
I don't feel bad about it, but i cannot lie and say that i'm not tired.
I need to relax, and not think of homework and tests.
But now... The winter is here and is cold. I don't feel like going out at all.
I want to go back to Florida! Today was snowing a little around here.
It's so weird that the snow began and is not even winter yet.
I believe that this winter will have a lot of white anorexic snow storms.
The weather and our planet is changing so fast; I can only watch and smile.
But soon enough i'll watch and cry.

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