Now what?

My eyes burn when I close them, I wonder if it's my body sending me signals of hatred and pain.

The texture of my skin is itching my thoughts, I wonder if i'm turning into sand.

I dislike the streets I walk on, I dislike the emotions that are being sent through the wind.

I want to block, unlock it and destroy it.... but it's too late.

The moon is brighter now.

Contradicting yourself is what I seek for

Learn to unleash your anger into my body, I want to hurt you once you do.

Despite the entities that surround you, I can fall onto you knowing that I won't fall.

I can turn around knowing that i'll cry

I'll know that tomorrow will be a brighter day for you and I.

Sit down and wait, alone or with company.

You'll still see the same sun that i'm watching.

Enjoy it, just don't go blind.

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So... My body is alive today, my body is recycling its blood and getting rid of what nots.

And... My mind is dead; I've been drinking water and salt for the past few hours. Is there even a point for me to be in this state of mind?

The sun is out, the rays are shinning outside my window and I... I want to change.

I want to stop drowning

I want to jump high

to fall...

And then cry out loud

To simply stop and say:

I'm done.

So... My hands move freely through your naked body, wondering and rethinking ..

Lies and disruptions.

Touches that implement a type of affection that was never there to begin with.

To explain pain

To let go of selfishness

And bring something else in...

Something bigger and louder than before.

Maybe i'm a masochist, but if it's pain i'll accept it for a little bit.

Until I fall down...

To cry again...

To simply tell myself:

I'm done.