Dark Window

Patterns are recognizable when you've done them more than twice.

They lead the way to change and the simplification currently occurring in my desperate brain shell.

Hopefully the sky won't turn red before I count to 11.

Many other things will, end, face, begin, return, and repeat once again.

I've done this before, I've felt this before... Repetitions.

Involuntary... Repetitions.

From a deserted past that has once again returned.

My inner thoughts desire your take hate me, to detest me, to destroy me.

Slowly, building up to the repeated event, a dead end.

A dead end.

Why do I do this? I don't know... All I know is that I'm tired of it, but this...

This is the only way I know how to do things:

To destroy them.

Closure

Life should be filled of simplicity and joy.

But how can we reach simplicity if we don't even know what it is?

Sit down, turn off the music, cellphones, computers, TVs, and lights.

Close your eyes.... And don't think of anything.

The simple sound of your own heart beating, and every inhale of air is simple enough to understand...

That simplicity is as simple as that.

We don't need to take a class, or purchase credit points of simplicity.

Simplicity can't be learned or manufactured.

It just is... And that's it.

Close your eyes and block those thoughts that haunt your tiny body.

Reject those negative emotions that make you resentful.

Just live to survive and make that survival good for you, others, and the environment you live in.

Restore

This year began quite good for me. I've ran a 6.4 miles after less than 10, 3 mile, runs after my injury. I had a great time with my family and friends, had the best birthday party anyone can ask for, and met the nicest people who kindly welcomed me into their group without even knowing me!

I know that years and days and holidays don't really exist, but is nice to have a point where we believe things start over.

We have an option to say "This year I'll accomplish this... And that..." Magnificent, optimism.

I got more than I wanted : people who are there for me and hopefully love me a great deal.

My life is justified by my actions, I don't think i'm doing too bad of a job, sometimes is impossible to make everyone happy but if you try and fail, then it's not about you.

There's one thing I wish... Don't let my past repeat itself this year.

Help me overcome all my obstacles and if something is really worth it for some unknown reason, then let it be.

Each year I go step on insects and kill flowers with my poisonous wastes, don't help me fall into my own trap.

Resurrection of the soul... Defenseless lament, bring me a light that'll guide me through it all.