Amethyst

Destruction of a circle unknown.
The peace of oneself against it all
Succumbs my inner thoughts.
is it ok to let it all go?
When there are no other places left to go?
I want to reincarnate into a memory
A deadly, happy, and sad memory.
When the night begins, your own thoughts will be doubted.
Your tears will dry up as the moon shines on you
There's no reason to be down, middle or high.
Balance is the key to the new world.
Are we ever going to find out the meaning to reason?
Chaos sounds as sweet as a lullaby.
Destiny and resignation
Come into play whenever I face my mindless thoughts.
what's the point to life when the candles blow out by a simple wind?
The senses moving and crashing inside of your body
Is as amazing as what's under the sea.
So here I am,
Waiting for answers, sitting on the earth.
Wishing to be heard remembered and yearned.
Confusion is found all over the walls.
Maybe I can crash them all.
Without any significance.
Let everything burn, become ash, so that I can blow them away.
Unfaithful, delinquent thoughts, circle my well being.
Destroy, suffocate, lay naked in my thoughts.
nothing to do, nowhere to be.
Finally remember,
That is only me.

El Corazon.

Sorry.
My doors are closing up, and there's only a small dent for you to stop it.
The time prevails as the water from rain falls.
There are two sides of every single lonely and confusing story.
I'm under and between sonic waves causing me to go deaf.
Is it good? To not hear anything?
There's a maze with letters, remembrances that don't matter anymore.
knowing that there's only a way for me to go.
I try to step down my natural route,
But these chains are too strong for me to even enter those fields.
Green, swampy, sun embracing fields. Provocative.
I'm forcing myself to go down this path, just living by the moment.
Endless moments, looking for a happy ending.
An ending that was never supposed to be there.
Fears of shadows, fears of light.
Will it ever be ok?
For me to let go?

Blue

Your hands...
Have been hugged, kissed, and wrapped around.
There's a life form in every specie.
There's also a black hole in every thought.
There's a river with blossom molecules
screaming while giving birth.
Dying, suffocating, and absorbing our feelings and hopes.
As my eyes close,
I feel a wall made out of concrete rising over my face.
I want to jump it, destroy it, fuck it, rape its insides with my voice.

I'm going to jump off a bridge with fearless thoughts.
I will drown then revive as  water.
So that every time you need me i'm there to wash away your worries.

I want to jump off a building
explode and hit the ground with force.
I want my particles, my skin, my imperfections to narrate the look in your eyes.
My broken neck and my angelic eyes
are not longer a part of my skull.
While you cry I sing in my own private fantasy.
There are no cars and no people.
I see skies that i can actually touch for once.

my hand covers your breast like a screaming mouth
trying to release its hunger.
My mouth moves around your delicate neck
strangling it with every touch.
your stomach is a chamber of passion
is a forbidden place that i'm not allowed to mess around with.

I won't touch,
Or cry,
Until your world is ready.
I'll imagine.

Premonition

There's a linen ribbon flying through my terrace

A message, a presentation of unknown tranquility takes over.

I see a door shinning through a crystal window.

I begin to walk, my heart begins to jumps

"What are you? Why are you calling me?" I ask the presence.

"meinch grul hich thurt" It replied.

The voice that guided me felt so warm and homey.

My eyes began to water up, I didn't understand and yet I knew.

"I'll let go of this rope! for you I'll do anything!" I screamed at the presence.

"Ryut heschen virum"

My heart stopped. I fainted.

"Virum... virum"

I woke up. I was in a world of glass, filled with peace and fright.

"I'm alone... But I'm not... Why do you care about me so much?" I asked.

"Virum lesik lium."

The glass wall I was living in

Was the cage I needed the most, I yearned the incarceration the hardship I never knew.

"Can I build a house here?" I asked the presence 301 days after I arrived into this jail.

The presence moved its head up and down, indicating that it was "alright" to do what I desired.

I smiled and began.

I found blocks and strange elements that -with a temperature of 700 degrees- would transform into unbelievable forms.

A day in mid-summer, the sun was bright, bright enough to illuminate the city I had built.

There were roads, giant buildings filled with nothing but space, there was fake black colored grass, and fake red colored trees. There were fake people puppets, and fake animals that overlooked the streets of my town.
My home, was made out of steel and rocks that penetrated the roads of the main street.
Inside my house there were pans and cups, corn and water, fake tv with steel people that represented "tv news".
My room had a tree made out of dirt, my bed was black like coffee and smelled rotten like eggs.
For the first time I knew what dedication and incarceration meant.
I knew that the past was a distant memory, and today is a book undone.
"Riuch hum dask letviurn igar." Said the creature coming into my kitchen.
"Lesh tangin ar?(Want to talk?)" I asked the creature. grabbing a chair and sitting next to it.
"Mellech uchnig fertacsh ahirium lir. lesh tangin igur relam." The creature replied with worrisome eyes.
He wanted to tell me that today, December 27, was my birthday; and as a birthday gift I had to choose between going back to planet earth or death.
I took my plate and threw it at the creature. I was crying.
Feeling pain.
Hatred.
Courage.
I began to break everything apart, everything i had constructed. Creatures began to run in, and with a clap i saw my body tremble and falling onto the floor.
"Lech riuch lir. lirium lir."
It was time for the to close my eyes because i chose death, over the world i once knew.
I betrayed my planet, for a planet unknown.
For a different feeling, that i never, not even once, knew...