Interruption

This song drowns me...
I can't feel many things while i hear this harmony.
There are pictures in my brain, of remorseful memories.
I feel i've been a regret, a past tense in someone's heart.
A hurtful shadow, a hurtful energy.
Why is it that I remember and wish I could stay?
The thoughts in my brain,
Cannot let go of anything and all.
Help me understand what can't be helped.
There's a home with closed doors and no key anywhere near.
I'm getting used to the people,
The smells,
The coldness,
The water,
Their smiles,
Their talks,
Their murmurs and worries.
It'll be crashed, all of it, in my brain
There's no return, once again, going over it.
It's scary, so many thoughts and no solution than to let go.
Once again,
And again....
I'm human, not a soulless whisper passing through your brain.
I despise it all,
But it can't be helped,
Once again,
I've got to face it all again.