Awakening

I'm going to close my eyes and see my whole day fly through my head.
Waking up at 1o am. I ran downstairs to wake my mom up, my second mom was already gone, and she didn't wanna wake up.
I made myself cheddar cheese bread with yogurt. Yummm!
Then my second mom came with a bag of bagels. She ate breakfast with us tearing up a bit, her father's wake was today, it made me sad because there is really nothing I can do or say that's going to make her happier. I hope my company helped her a bit through these days of grief.
When I went to the wake ceremony I was scared to go inside... I didn't know what I was going to see, or how I was going to react, until I went in.
My second mom's father was in a beautiful wooden casket. I couldn't believe that it was an open casket ceremony. I felt like my body froze, my feelings stopped for a second, and I was in shock.
This was the first time, after I was 5 years old, that I see someone closed to me dead.
I gave my prayers to Mr. Cook and I went directlyto pay my respects to his family.
I stayed there from 2PM-4PM. More than 120 people went to see Mr. Cook, and those were the people who signed the visitor's book. It's insane how many people went to see him... He was very known in BMW.
After the first Wake Ceremony I had to leave with m mom and my neighbor.
Toobad I couldn't stay for tomorrow's Funeral... I really wish to be with mom second mom and keep her company. But I'll give out my prayers.
Restom in peace.