Hybernation.

What do you do when you can't say a word?
How do you feel when you can't even say "Hello"?
Are we all bound to fear and hate?
When I type on my computer
Everything is dark
My sources and inclinations are visible
by the light that you send me.

Why am I hurt?
When will I learn to live?
When will I learn to cry?
The night is pure again but my hands are not
I fucking hate you.
Your innocence is disgusting me.
Your voice is like lava
As soon as you touch me I melt.
Your affection gives me chills.
Your presence makes me stupid.

That's why I hate you.
That's why I can't stand you.
That's why I want to choke you.
That's why every sentence ends with you.
That's why my eyes are closed.
That's why they are waiting
Until you wake me up again.
Until you remember I exist.
What I am,
And who I am.