Global Storm

Global warming.
Deforestation, desertification.
Lament and poor coordination
Has taken us to watch
The devastation of this planet.
Liars! All of us, millions of liars!

Globalization is feeding us with golden bowls.
Papers, signatures, constructed plans
All of those resources,
Paying with corporations.
Burning our thoughts with their ideals
Controlling our sense of humanity.

Raping our homes and our brains.
Branding our arms and our heads.
Leaving us filled with uncontrollable debts.
How can we blame them and not blame ourselves?
Supporting and believing ideas,
Not even worth listening to.

I see people as whole planets, we are different from one another and yet so similar. I've forgotten to even send you goodbyes. My flesh feels dry with the touch of products, running against my skin. Coconut oil? Olive Oil? how many oils does it need to stop itching?
I can't decide and can't convert metric systems into gold.
Don't have the power to be close to the moon.
But I can live and strive to go on.
Oh... How long can I go?

Interruption

This song drowns me...
I can't feel many things while i hear this harmony.
There are pictures in my brain, of remorseful memories.
I feel i've been a regret, a past tense in someone's heart.
A hurtful shadow, a hurtful energy.
Why is it that I remember and wish I could stay?
The thoughts in my brain,
Cannot let go of anything and all.
Help me understand what can't be helped.
There's a home with closed doors and no key anywhere near.
I'm getting used to the people,
The smells,
The coldness,
The water,
Their smiles,
Their talks,
Their murmurs and worries.
It'll be crashed, all of it, in my brain
There's no return, once again, going over it.
It's scary, so many thoughts and no solution than to let go.
Once again,
And again....
I'm human, not a soulless whisper passing through your brain.
I despise it all,
But it can't be helped,
Once again,
I've got to face it all again.

Butterfly

Rest in peace my butterfly.
I'm acquainted with your inner thoughts.
Travel all year around, looking for forests,
Looking for your fate.

Rise and laugh my butterfly.
The sun is bright and strongly rising.
No more cold nights
No more rain to slow you down.

Run away my butterfly.
There's freedom in every door.
Your perfume makes my pupils dilate.
Your essence is making me shake.

Vivid illusion
Why do you make me wonder?
Vivid dreams
You're giving me a bad dose of insomnia.
Vivid reactions
I feel like a second hand smoke.
Smoke me,
At this point of time I don't care if you do.

I just wish I could explode,
Into a million rays of sun.

I'll shine the way for you my butterfly.
I'll not let you stop your trip to the forests unknown.

Amethyst

Destruction of a circle unknown.
The peace of oneself against it all
Succumbs my inner thoughts.
is it ok to let it all go?
When there are no other places left to go?
I want to reincarnate into a memory
A deadly, happy, and sad memory.
When the night begins, your own thoughts will be doubted.
Your tears will dry up as the moon shines on you
There's no reason to be down, middle or high.
Balance is the key to the new world.
Are we ever going to find out the meaning to reason?
Chaos sounds as sweet as a lullaby.
Destiny and resignation
Come into play whenever I face my mindless thoughts.
what's the point to life when the candles blow out by a simple wind?
The senses moving and crashing inside of your body
Is as amazing as what's under the sea.
So here I am,
Waiting for answers, sitting on the earth.
Wishing to be heard remembered and yearned.
Confusion is found all over the walls.
Maybe I can crash them all.
Without any significance.
Let everything burn, become ash, so that I can blow them away.
Unfaithful, delinquent thoughts, circle my well being.
Destroy, suffocate, lay naked in my thoughts.
nothing to do, nowhere to be.
Finally remember,
That is only me.

El Corazon.

Sorry.
My doors are closing up, and there's only a small dent for you to stop it.
The time prevails as the water from rain falls.
There are two sides of every single lonely and confusing story.
I'm under and between sonic waves causing me to go deaf.
Is it good? To not hear anything?
There's a maze with letters, remembrances that don't matter anymore.
knowing that there's only a way for me to go.
I try to step down my natural route,
But these chains are too strong for me to even enter those fields.
Green, swampy, sun embracing fields. Provocative.
I'm forcing myself to go down this path, just living by the moment.
Endless moments, looking for a happy ending.
An ending that was never supposed to be there.
Fears of shadows, fears of light.
Will it ever be ok?
For me to let go?

Blue

Your hands...
Have been hugged, kissed, and wrapped around.
There's a life form in every specie.
There's also a black hole in every thought.
There's a river with blossom molecules
screaming while giving birth.
Dying, suffocating, and absorbing our feelings and hopes.
As my eyes close,
I feel a wall made out of concrete rising over my face.
I want to jump it, destroy it, fuck it, rape its insides with my voice.

I'm going to jump off a bridge with fearless thoughts.
I will drown then revive as  water.
So that every time you need me i'm there to wash away your worries.

I want to jump off a building
explode and hit the ground with force.
I want my particles, my skin, my imperfections to narrate the look in your eyes.
My broken neck and my angelic eyes
are not longer a part of my skull.
While you cry I sing in my own private fantasy.
There are no cars and no people.
I see skies that i can actually touch for once.

my hand covers your breast like a screaming mouth
trying to release its hunger.
My mouth moves around your delicate neck
strangling it with every touch.
your stomach is a chamber of passion
is a forbidden place that i'm not allowed to mess around with.

I won't touch,
Or cry,
Until your world is ready.
I'll imagine.

Premonition

There's a linen ribbon flying through my terrace

A message, a presentation of unknown tranquility takes over.

I see a door shinning through a crystal window.

I begin to walk, my heart begins to jumps

"What are you? Why are you calling me?" I ask the presence.

"meinch grul hich thurt" It replied.

The voice that guided me felt so warm and homey.

My eyes began to water up, I didn't understand and yet I knew.

"I'll let go of this rope! for you I'll do anything!" I screamed at the presence.

"Ryut heschen virum"

My heart stopped. I fainted.

"Virum... virum"

I woke up. I was in a world of glass, filled with peace and fright.

"I'm alone... But I'm not... Why do you care about me so much?" I asked.

"Virum lesik lium."

The glass wall I was living in

Was the cage I needed the most, I yearned the incarceration the hardship I never knew.

"Can I build a house here?" I asked the presence 301 days after I arrived into this jail.

The presence moved its head up and down, indicating that it was "alright" to do what I desired.

I smiled and began.

I found blocks and strange elements that -with a temperature of 700 degrees- would transform into unbelievable forms.

A day in mid-summer, the sun was bright, bright enough to illuminate the city I had built.

There were roads, giant buildings filled with nothing but space, there was fake black colored grass, and fake red colored trees. There were fake people puppets, and fake animals that overlooked the streets of my town.
My home, was made out of steel and rocks that penetrated the roads of the main street.
Inside my house there were pans and cups, corn and water, fake tv with steel people that represented "tv news".
My room had a tree made out of dirt, my bed was black like coffee and smelled rotten like eggs.
For the first time I knew what dedication and incarceration meant.
I knew that the past was a distant memory, and today is a book undone.
"Riuch hum dask letviurn igar." Said the creature coming into my kitchen.
"Lesh tangin ar?(Want to talk?)" I asked the creature. grabbing a chair and sitting next to it.
"Mellech uchnig fertacsh ahirium lir. lesh tangin igur relam." The creature replied with worrisome eyes.
He wanted to tell me that today, December 27, was my birthday; and as a birthday gift I had to choose between going back to planet earth or death.
I took my plate and threw it at the creature. I was crying.
Feeling pain.
Hatred.
Courage.
I began to break everything apart, everything i had constructed. Creatures began to run in, and with a clap i saw my body tremble and falling onto the floor.
"Lech riuch lir. lirium lir."
It was time for the to close my eyes because i chose death, over the world i once knew.
I betrayed my planet, for a planet unknown.
For a different feeling, that i never, not even once, knew...

I wish.

I wish I could stay in one dimension.
A dimension where there are no judgements and no lifestyles.
No impulses and no hatred.
I wish I could understand better, I would comprehend the unexplainable.
I wish I could make you happy, I wish I wouldn't make you cry.
I've given up my emotions and feelings for you.
For your own happiness, for your own soul.
Ever since those times when I was too ignorant to understand,
I would put you first, and forget about me.
I always thought I was selfish, I wanted you to be only for me.
Mine my and for me.
But I don't own you, I'm just your creation.
A small percentage of your own skin and vessels.
And yet,
I can't let you go.
I've grown to dislike you and to distance myself from you,
But I'm still here, giving up my dignity
So you can smile happily everyday.
So you can feel love everywhere you go.
So you can be free and not alone.
I don't care about my feelings,
I don't want to see you tired,
I just want you to be happy
No matter where I go
No matter if i'm gone.
I'll be fine because I know you won't be alone.

Am I wrong to feel pain?
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end?
Am I wrong to cry?

Am I wrong to be who I am?
Am I wrong to be alive?
Am I wrong to breathe from your air?
Am I wrong to be?

Piano Play

As I look into the sky...
I see
A world that's masked
With thunderstorms.
The rainy nights
Take place in a house
With no bedrooms.
Only glass windows that work like sand clocks.
I see your eyes
Shine through, and I can't,
Say "hello"
I call you in my dreams, but you are silent.
I cant' see, something new...
Why do you block my thoughts?
Everytime I see a soul..
I feel so alone...
Now I have no home.
Why do you do this to me?
Why can't I see beyond that glass window?
Why can't I see?
The words that I feel
Are drowning in tears.
They are drowning in tears...

Dark Window

Patterns are recognizable when you've done them more than twice.

They lead the way to change and the simplification currently occurring in my desperate brain shell.

Hopefully the sky won't turn red before I count to 11.

Many other things will, end, face, begin, return, and repeat once again.

I've done this before, I've felt this before... Repetitions.

Involuntary... Repetitions.

From a deserted past that has once again returned.

My inner thoughts desire your take hate me, to detest me, to destroy me.

Slowly, building up to the repeated event, a dead end.

A dead end.

Why do I do this? I don't know... All I know is that I'm tired of it, but this...

This is the only way I know how to do things:

To destroy them.

Closure

Life should be filled of simplicity and joy.

But how can we reach simplicity if we don't even know what it is?

Sit down, turn off the music, cellphones, computers, TVs, and lights.

Close your eyes.... And don't think of anything.

The simple sound of your own heart beating, and every inhale of air is simple enough to understand...

That simplicity is as simple as that.

We don't need to take a class, or purchase credit points of simplicity.

Simplicity can't be learned or manufactured.

It just is... And that's it.

Close your eyes and block those thoughts that haunt your tiny body.

Reject those negative emotions that make you resentful.

Just live to survive and make that survival good for you, others, and the environment you live in.

Restore

This year began quite good for me. I've ran a 6.4 miles after less than 10, 3 mile, runs after my injury. I had a great time with my family and friends, had the best birthday party anyone can ask for, and met the nicest people who kindly welcomed me into their group without even knowing me!

I know that years and days and holidays don't really exist, but is nice to have a point where we believe things start over.

We have an option to say "This year I'll accomplish this... And that..." Magnificent, optimism.

I got more than I wanted : people who are there for me and hopefully love me a great deal.

My life is justified by my actions, I don't think i'm doing too bad of a job, sometimes is impossible to make everyone happy but if you try and fail, then it's not about you.

There's one thing I wish... Don't let my past repeat itself this year.

Help me overcome all my obstacles and if something is really worth it for some unknown reason, then let it be.

Each year I go step on insects and kill flowers with my poisonous wastes, don't help me fall into my own trap.

Resurrection of the soul... Defenseless lament, bring me a light that'll guide me through it all.